Corey Chronicles

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In the spirit of Roy, I'm going to try a very open post.   It is a lazy Friday afternoon, got a couple of things done today but overall wasn't crazy.  I totally need a break so it is fortuitous that it is Friday.   A lot of times I ponder the steps next in life in regards to business/career ambitions and leisure.  Believe it or not I took a class in college that was about balancing business and leisure with an emphasis on religion(went to a Catholic University).  It was an interesting class but weird at the same time because it answered the question of does a person need balance in their life but it didn't give any direction to understanding that balance or figuring out if things needed to be removed from ones life in order to gain balance. 

I've struggled with where to draw the line of work and hobby and I enjoy technology and love learning about new things.  The issue with that though is that I can get burnt out pretty bad by the end of the week, which is the way I am right now.  The kicker is that I need to go home and deal with todos from my personal life like bills etc and that seems to just add to the unbalanced feeling that I have.  I'm lucky because I have an awesome wife who I can talk to and work through the feelings, even though a solution typically doesn't occur. 

I guess I'm rambling right now...I'll probably add another post later after I've had time to sort things out. 

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I've noticed lately that I'm running at 100% capacity during the day when I'm at work and when I get home I drop it down significantly as I try to watch some tv and get some down time.  I find when I try for the down time that I end up feeling like I'm wasting time.  Am I amping myself up so much with my daily work that I can't break the bonds of it when I want to relax.

I suppose a lot of people struggle with this.  It is like when I go on vacation, it take 2-3 days to realize I'm on vacation and to let things go.  By that time I have 1-2 days left and then I have to spend that last day or the first day back at work traying to ramp up again.  It reminds me of running through an airport.  You run on the moving sidewalks and it helps you move faster but when you hit the ground after the moving sidewalk you get a jolt cause your body isn't moving as fast, then you hit another moving sidewalk and you jolt to speed up to it and then at the end of it you jolt to slow down...eventually you give up and get on the golf cart that is driving by. 

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My wife recently started school again, she is going back for her masters.  This has decreased the time that we see each other as she leaves before I wake up and is working later now.  This has affected my mood quite a bit, especially in the morning, which pushes me to the conclusion that I need to have people around me to keep my happiness up, to a point.  I don't like crowds and I don't like a group of people I don't know.  So the social interaction has to be with people I know and it has to be limited.  Also I need to keep my life constantly changing.  Normalcy and schedule is my kryptonite.  If I have to be somewhere routinely(this goes for downtime not work) I start to not enjoy it as it is too scripted, in my mind.  I've always had issues with things that are constant.  I think that is why I like computers sooo much, even though I am technically sitting at a computer for an extended period of time which can be considered as a constant, I am able to change what I am doing and vary the task greatly.  Plus there is a constant stimulous.  Anyhoo I will have to become accustomed to not having my wife around and get used to a level of routine.